Now, yes this is going to be about you. Yes you, the person that thinks the world evolves around you. The person who never, ever, even once apologized for hurting a friend, because they think they never did anything wrong. The person who reached out to me as a teenager to be my best friend, just to ditch me without an explanation many years later, leaving me to wonder what I ever did wrong. I never forgot this because it did hurt so bad at the time. The person who used me, like my feelings never mattered.
10 years later. The person who reached out to me yet again, just to block me, over and over without any explanation. The person, who never did anything wrong in her life, but expects others to apologize for something they never did themselves. The person who assumed things that weren’t true instead of demanding an explanation like a grown adult and have a mature conversation about it. The person who chose to end the friendship again, as easy as it is to throw something in the trash.
The person who demanded, forced her friend to talk about a difficult situation, even though the friend didn’t feel like it at that moment, and was shutting down because of real life struggles. Instead of understanding my situation, the friend reacted aggressively because i was getting annoyed at being pushed to talk and started writting mean comments everywhere on my social medias.
The friend that got mad because I dared removed them as a friend, to avoid having to talk about the situation that at that moment, I didn’t feel ready to talk about. The friend that kept on posting hurtful things on their facebook wall to hurt me, over and over again with their entourage, making fun of me. You, hurting me, times and times again, without being able to even acknowledge an ounce of wrongdoing or even apologizing.
I did say mean times a few times. Am I perfect no ? But what makes me strong is that at least, I can apologize for things i did wrong and regretted.
Who needs a friend like that in their life ? The person who I reached out to, times and times again, wondering about their well being, just to be treated like a total stranger. The person who blocked me again, without an explanation.
Don’t you worry ! You showed me how much you didn’t need me in your life. You gave me back my happiness by blocking me again and this time, there is absolutely zero going back for me. Your facebook, your posts, your wall, means nothing to me. Don’t you worry, the time for reaching out for me, is done with. Until my sister take over my facebook and announced my passing to my real friends and family who actually care about me and have showed me love and support. Know that there will be no more snooping, spying on my part, to see how you are doing.
I am done caring for someone who thinks they never did anything wrong and never once, apologized, but instead, used lies to justify their actions. I am done having to worry about what I am going to say or write in fear of retaliation or assumptions. I am done being the grown up for the both of us and ignoring such childish, immature, behaviors. I am done saying i am sorry just to make you feel better about yourself.
Enjoy your life with your enablers.
My last words to you. Dear former friend, I truly enjoyed having you as a friend when we were young and valued our friendship and time together, however, both in the past and now, you have continued to ghost me, which is both upsetting and painful when i feel i have done nothing to deserve it. At this point, i feel its best for both of us, if we no longer communicate with each other as it has becaome a toxic friensdhip. Know that i have no ill feeling toward you and truly wish you a happy and healthy life going foward. I hope that you find friendship that will truly make you happy. I love you, god bless and Goobye.
Signed, A Former Friend who is now moving on for good.
